Being Careful

Thanks merider for the encouragement. I love you so much. Today Walter called and mom talked to him but told him I wasn't around. I have to be careful at all times because I tend to keep people in my life that are toxic (good word?). I told Walt over a year ago that I would NEVER, EVER marry him. He is basically a nice person but not someone I want to marry. Honestly, I love being single. I'm hetero but I tend to have crappy (good word?) relationships with men. Now I know what you are thinking, merider. You are telling me to stop feeling sorry for people who do not have their own best interests in mind, much less mine. I agree. I offered to be his friend and I will speak to him but make it clear for the record that I don't not want to live with him in Florida and/or marry him. I had another guy from the past contact me last year (Steve P.) and I just kept ignoring his e-mails until he gave up and went away. He is a nice guy but again, I don't want to date or marry him. I mean I know that having a husband and kids is something I'm missing out on but I really do love being single. Don't you agree, merider? I don't have to worry about changing my body for someone other than me. I wear what I want. I go where I want without being questioned about my whereabouts or who I'm seeing. If I was madly in love with someone it might be worth it. Until then I have to be careful. I plan to spend time this weekend with Dad and Granny. I'm looking forward to the trip. Well, merider, hope you have a great weekend. Love you always. JT