depression, the ongoing struggle

Well, I haven't been around for awhile but like my title says I've been struggling with depression. I take Wellbutrin every day but it only works about 80% of the time. The rest of the day I'm trying to find purpose in my life. Today was a better day for me because I went to karate class and I really love the teacher. He makes jokes when the Soke (grand master) comes to observe class by saying things like, "act like you know what you are doing." He is very supportive and encourages all of the students. Basically I could go four times a week to class but it's a matter of motivating myself to go. One of the things I hate about having a mental condition is putting up with side effects from my meds. I usually get up at eight or nine in the morning and until I take my "uppers" (Provigil and Wellbutrin) I'm like a zombie. I'm trying to find ways to get going everyday like splashing cold water in my face when I first wake up. WW's continues to change. Another teacher is being trained for my class so even though I was getting used to the teacher who replaced the teacher who left a few weeks ago (complicated isn't it?), I will have again another teacher. My class has fallen from 35 members a week to 14 members this week plus four new members which means we have still lost another four members. I try to just go with the flow. I believe in WW's and I will continue to use the weight loss system for the rest of my life. How long I'll be able to work for them depends on what happens to my group. At least for now I still have my job. I'm also hoping to hear from a publisher I sent illustrated work to a few months ago. They take up to four months to answer and nest month will be the fourth month. They only contact you if they have an interest in your work. I can't fail for trying. I hope merider is doing well on her WW system. I'm glad she is having fun biking. She would make a great physical trainer or therapist. merider has a great personality and works well on her feet. I think my sister should try to act again because she is beautiful and talented and there are parts now for average looking people (not merider) and older people. merider isn't average looking and she isn't old but she is old enough to do parts like playing a mother in a family. Anyway, I hope everyone has a great week. I'm going to fight my depression by working out more (including karate) and writing. Today was a beautiful day. Thank goodness for every day we have. Hang in there, merider. Things have a way of working out. (Whether you want it to or not). JT